Below are the 10 most recent journal entries recorded in uglybrdsmstdie's LiveJournal:

Saturday, February 12th, 2005
8:39 pm	wow just my luck I have the worst luck in the whole entire world i swear. Grrr i was so bored lst night becasue every one sucks and werent online!!!grrrr So i was up till like 3 because i wasnt tired and the damn cats were with me!!! yea satan and tinkerbell!!! Oh well. Them my damn tennis instructur called and said she had to cancel our lesson today which of corse i was happy yet sad to hear. Tennis begins on the 22 and im scared as hell!!! But im making varsity this year YEa! Oh well then. The rest of the day i just hung out and cleaned. MArtha AL Kelsey and kaylyn are coming next week. So i will spend the next weekend hanging out with drunken sluttly preppy cheerleaders. My worst nightmare come to life. Ben ofered to let me stay at his house, and no matter how much i beg my parents to let me, they just say no. I wonder why? hehehe.Yea and i defanitly am in the mood to murder david. That stupid fucker, but he does make very good smoothies! lol. Yea he refused to go to the movies and leave me home alone!!! Leave it to your little brother to ruin all your plans for the night. God and tothink i could have gotten had fun hanging out with friends. Ben was so mad at me and wnated me to tie david up and leave him in a closet. Meh oh well theres will alwasy be another time. And i was so excited to see him!!!! HMM well im going to go back to my ever so healthy dinner of smoothie and girl scout cookies!!!! Current Mood: horny Current Music: somebody told me by the killers (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 23rd, 2005
8:18 pm	Heres a random question thing bgay sent me so i decided to stick it on my journal!!! 1. If you could build a 2nd house where would it be? someplace warm like mexico or my own private island 2. What's your favorite article of clothing? my tennis hoodie 3. Favorite physical feature of the opposite sex? dark deep eyes 4. The last CD you bought? hmm green day american idiot 5. favorite place to be? alone in my room 6. What's your favorite place to be massaged? the back of my neck 7. What is most important, strong in mind or strong in body? strong in mind 8. What time do you wake up in the morning? 6 to 7 30 depending on how bitchy my parenals are being 9. What's your favorite kitchen appliance? hmm the knife 10. What makes you really angry? iggnorant assholes 11. If you could play an instrument, what would it be? i used to play the flute 12. Car or SUV? car white 69 mustang convirtable to be exact 13. Do you believe in afterlife? no because i dont believe in god 14. Favorite children's book? the happy hockey family 15. What is your favorite season? summer 16. If you could have one super power what would it be? mind reading 17. If you have a tattoo, what is it? i wish 18. Can you juggle? ummm no 19. Who is the one person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to? my grandparents 20. What's your favorite day? saturday, duh! 21. What's in the trunk of your car? umm the car i dont have 22. Which do you prefer sushi or hamburger? sushi 25. Who did you receive this from? bailey 26. What is your favorite flower? red rose 27. What is your favorite meal? hmm fondue 28. What is your favorite candle scent? vinilla 29. What is your favorite store in the mall? bananna republic 30. If you could be anything, what would you be? hmmm happy with who i am and my life Current Mood: tired Current Music: ipod (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 12th, 2005
6:46 pm	ahhhhhhhh!!!! i jUST Feel like screaming so here it goes ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!1 wow that almost made me feel better. Why when your life seems to be almost perfect do u have to be hit by a truck? I was so happy till break now im just going in a downward spiral. I felt like i could trust someone not to hurt me like everyone else but then they hurt me more then ive ever been hurt before. I feel so used becasue thats all that i was there for. I was the person that there were no real feelings for just a fun person to fool around with when they were bored. And to think i trusted them so much they knew me the best and yet they still did this. I can never forgive or forget. I trusted them more then i trusted my self and like everyone before them, they let me down. I hate the fact that i let my self become so affected but they made me feel like i was actually important and loved. I should have seen this coming but i was so blinded by happeness. And it hurts me the most that they wont talk to me like its my falt that all this happned. I wish i could just fly away to somewhere where i could be happy and forget all of this but i cant i can never forget. And because of them i can never trust anyone again theyve hurt me, and all i want to do is hurt them back. Why does every feeling have to come with a reprecussin? Current Mood: numb Current Music: stupid girl by cold (Comment on this)
Monday, January 3rd, 2005
7:56 pm	Im Home!!!! Im HOME yea!!!! Its very exciting i know. Get home from nc where its all warm and crap and i get to come to 47 degree weather, lost luggage and a broken car. Now i wonder why i even left but oh well. I miss my cuzs already (actually i miss annoying them heheh "i like horny" right robert heheheh) my moms in a wonderful mood which is always a blast. she walking around yelling at everyone. I dont get it when shes in Nc shes all happy and cheerful, buut then she gets home and she gets a stick up her ass. Oh well whatever.Its so nice to be home in my own bed and have my own friends to hang out with, but no more drunken old men, midnight driving with a searchlight, CRACK and crazy gun happy rednecks to be with. Now only rich spoiled drunken stoner ppl to hang out with. God i miss the south already. But i got to come home and cuddle with satan which just my day so much better. Yea SATAN!!!!! Shes curled up on my bed right now. WOw im bored i miss having my own personal driver if only robert was here i wnat to go driving. Couf Couf opps i had something cought in my throught(right rob) lol oh well. Current Mood: hehehehe Current Music: scars papa roach (Comment on this)
Friday, December 31st, 2004
8:44 pm	North Carolina Im in NC with my cousins kick ass. Roberts being a stupid jackass and im getting sick of him. All my friends are partying and having fun but im stuck here all alone with robert and thomas. Im having a blast let me tell u. HAnging out around here has gotten kinda boaring. Wow i hear guns outside. U can really tell im in redneck country. But oh well. im really bored and want some one to talk to but everyone sux and isnt online. Grrrrr its pissing me off. Current Mood: bored Current Music: Pink Floyd (Comment on this)
Friday, December 24th, 2004
8:16 pm	CHRISTMAS EVE!!!!! Yea its christmas eve. ITS so exciting i can hardly stand it. Yea for presents. I damn deserve them after fucking cleaning all day. Were visiting my favorite hicks in NC. Yea crazy rednecks. JK i luv u all. theres absolutly none online which sucks ass. i wish i had someone to talk to besides my damn cousin (but i still love u robert) oh well thats the way my life works. My brothers finally snapped and gone compleatly crazy. And he still believes in santa at the age of 12 which is jsut sad but very intertaining for my dad and i during dinner. I was lauging so hard i was crying. but oh well i may jsut tell him its time he knew the truth. Cant wait till i get to NC, and let me say that the weather better be damn good or i will be very very pissed. Im sick of the fucking snow and cold. I want it to be summer again!!! ='( But im ready to party it up. OH well ill have my cousins to hang out with which will be a blast hopefully. Oh well going to bed so i can wake up extra early tomorrow!!!! Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: cold hard bitch by Jet (Comment on this)
Monday, December 20th, 2004
5:26 pm	Yea its winter break which is damn exciting. HAnging around the house with my bro is getting fucking boaring though let me tell u. God i just want to do something, ANYTHING!!!! OH well margaritavills gone for the evening which is damn exciting also. I also think im getting sick which really sux.  I heat monos going around our school, i hope i dont have it, hehehe but chances are i do, wow knowing my luck.  But anyway.  Current Mood: blah Current Music: Green Day (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, December 6th, 2004
7:46 pm	hmmmm im really sad. Things sux at home and im really depressed. God i cant wait till the break only 9 days left. I really wish things were like they were last year im getting so stressed out and am sick of all my friends. The only person i wnat to talk to is ______ but theyve been really moody lately and im just sick of it all. I jsut cant win. If only i could dissapear and go and live on some tropical island somewhere that would be nice. I feel like shit and jsut want some peace and quite. Oh well im obviously not going to get it. Grr if only it were summer then everything would be nice. Talking to robert is jsut getting boring no offense rob its jsut your not that damn exciting. I heed some lovin damn it. Current Mood: distressed Current Music: Godsmack (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 5th, 2004
8:14 pm	I hate the weekends God im sooo bored ive done nothing but watch south park the movie all day. ahhhh im going crazy!!!! " Make the noise of a dying giraffe" Hehehehe. Yea other then that the day fucking sucked. I almost killed david because hes a stupid asshole that needs to be shot, and one day im going to snap and kill the bastard. Grrrr yea and my parents got in a huge fight so my moms locked in room over the garage and not talking to anyone, which isnt that bad of a thing if u think about it. Yea but other then that ive decided im running away and moving to cuba and becoming a communist hehe yea ill take over the damn country. Hehehehe wow sounds good right about now. But anyway im sure ill be up till forever waiting for someone to call me. YEa so that was my ever exciting day. Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: G-Dogs mix and Seether Broken (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 24th, 2004
6:36 pm	god i hate holidays grrr, tomorrows thanksgiving and im ready to scream. My parents have turned into fucking cleaning nazis and im hiding in my room trying to avoid everyone. Of coarse joan had to come over and help, and guess what she brought alex oh fucking joy. god i hate those 2 more than anyone else in the whole wide world. Current Mood: angry Current Music: whatever is on the radio (2 Comments |Comment on this)